Journal Archive

Welcome to the inside of my head!!!! My journal is a place where I let my thoughts off their leash and they get to run free. Unafraid of what others might think, feel, or say. Here I will be sharing with you everything that is important to me. That could be anything from the state of our beloved planet to my new favorite nail polish. Do your thoughts have a playground where they can let loose and be free? I invite you to "gift" yourself and your thoughts by keeping a journal. You never know what new and fun things you might find in there.Tomiko
I spend a lot of time around women. I guess that makes sense since I created a women's empowerment and support group. I cherish the time spent with my Goddess sisters. We are a silly bunch. Seriously, we crack ourselves up. But there are times when the conversations take us deeper into our selves. This, is my opinion, is what the Goddess Gathering is really about. Women looking inside of themselves for the truth of who they are. All the while being supported and nurtured by their Goddess sisters.
As someone who is committed to living my life vibrantly, I am pained when I experience women who don't see the beauty of who they are. Whether it be their marital status, weight, career, family, hairstyle, or income, my spirit wants them to experience just how dynamic they are. I know that I can "Goddess" them with words of love, support, encouragement and empowerment. But it's really up to them to take on the magnificent quality of themselves.
Let me offer this...only YOU can determine your worth. No one else should have that power. Not society, your significant other, your family, your friends, your boss.....NO ONE. We give away our power so easily and I don't understand that. I really don't. Now I am well aware that one's past can shape who they are in the present. But, my belief is that once you become an adult, you are responsible for the care of yourSELF. It's up to you to nurture, love, empower, and support YOU. And that takes work, just like anything worth having. You have to work for it. Whether that means finding a therapist, confronting those that deny your brilliance, reading books that uplift you, or joining a women's empowerment and support group like the Goddess Gathering. It is in your best interest to be your loudest supporter so that when others try to dim your light, you can still walk tall.
My personal experience of mySELF is that I'm amazing and only getting better. Mind you, it wasn't always this way. Oh no!! A cross word or look from someone could send me into immediate despair. I was very unsure of myself and a consumate people pleaser. While I didn't always want to do what was asked of me, I did it because I really needed to feel liked. Or I would make real what others said about me, even though I KNEW it wasn't my truth. I was so fragile that I didn't know how to fight for the truth of my spirit. It was a dark time in my life and I am sooooooo happy to be past it.
YOU can do the same. I promise. But you must believe the truth of who you are. You must believe that you are lovable, talented, beautiful, worthy, dynamic, capable, and the list goes on and on. If your foundation is built with these amazing truths, then NO ONE can rock you. NO THING can shake you. You will be firmly rooted in the truth of who you are. I speak from experience because that's how I'm living my life now. Don't get me wrong, upset still occurs. But, the truth of who I AM is right beneath the surface and she jumps up at the very first sign of untruths being directed at me. She doesn't play!!! : ) Therefore, my reaction to and recovery from upset is short-lived. I don't have time to wallow in untruth when my truth is so much more empowering. I choose MY TRUTH everyday.
So, my dear Goddess sisters, I encourage you to WALK TALL. Be the light in every room. Be all aspects of YOU and don't apologize for it. Be brilliant. Be funny. Be sexy. Be childlike. BE YOU. Your spirit is waiting for you to allow her full permission to be just who you/she is.
I know YOU are in there and I can't wait for you to meet you.
KEEP SHINING!
10/15/2009 11:48:09
Thank you for sharing your self through this journal entry Tomiko. I can so relate and at the state of peace you are in like a glimpse into the future I am working towards. I feel like I'm in the beginning stages of embracing myself, my truth, my spirit, and my worth. It can be challenging as some people seem to thrive off of diming your light. But I have never felt so freer in my life when I listen to that voice within. And the feeling of being honest with myself is well worth the ill feelings this act may cause within others. I feel like I am entering a stage in my life where I am going to meet myself for the first time. Each day I come one step closer to meeting that woman inside...I picture her everyday. I'm looking forward to my future and the wisdom that comes with time as I walk this path of self-discovery and self-love!
Enjoying the Journey,
Toya
10/17/2009 11:31:07
Dear Toya,
Thanks for your reply. I am so happy to hear that you are on your way to YOU. It does take commitment and self-awareness, but it is definitely worth doing.
Once you've gotten to YOU, no one can dim your light no matter they say or who THEY are. You're right there girl. Keep moving towards your inner light.
Loving and supporting you through it all......
Tomiko
10/24/2009 22:18:00
I am so blessed to be surrounded by women who lift me up. I could read and hear these kinds words every day and sometimes even then I forget. So, thank you Tomiko for continuing to say it. Even if I have to hear it over and over. And for the women out there who are visiting this site for the first time or who dont hear these kinds of words every day, hear it here. Hear it now. Its for you! And tell yourself if no one else is.... at the moment. They will come.
10/31/2009 14:32:59
Just reading this-- I have to say that I thank you for your daily words being the small pebble that ripples in the water--it reverberates through the day and sometimes, without me even realizing it until later, becomes evident in how I "minister" to women who need to be uplifted, need to hear me say "I've been there" and "you're not alone". I often say to my girl/teenage cousins that as awesome as they think I am that they are "new and improved" because they have me as an example--a road map. THAT is what you are for many and what we are en masse as Goddesses--living examples of our new and improved selves...and we get by with a little help from our friends, don't we?
11/01/2009 20:22:25
I'm also a little late reading this; but I'm glad I did. I'm guilty of doubting myself. I often get caught up wishing I was taller, smaller, richer and had nicer clothes...as if the things I do have aren't enough. Tomiko, thank you for reminding me of my truth; that I am lovable, I am worthy, and I am beautiful.
11/03/2009 09:51:13
Wonderful Tomiko! Also, I was looking for the Goddess Guidance Card Message for this month I have it written down at home somewhere but it really resonated with me this month. It was something about being qualified and ready for the position you have been place in......can you remind me?
Always grateful, Ronnivashti
11/03/2009 12:24:15
Hello My Goddess Sisters!!! I'm so happy to "see" so many of you on here. Thank you ALL for your love, feedback, and sharing. I can honestly see that you are all glowing and growing by leaps and bounds....just because YOU say so. Thank you for sharing your journey with me.
And please know this....I learn and grow right along with you. Reading the words you've shared has reminded me of mySELF. She gets lost sometimes and I'm glad to know that my Goddess sisters will always call me HOME.
@Ronni - I don't have the Guidance Cards handy, but please remind me of your question when I see you next.
Blessings Goddesses and you know what's next....Keep Shining!!
I love you all!
Tomiko