Journal Archive
Welcome to the inside of my head!!!! My journal is a place where I let my thoughts off their leash and they get to run free. Unafraid of what others might think, feel, or say. Here I will be sharing with you everything that is important to me. That could be anything from the state of our beloved planet to my new favorite nail polish. Do your thoughts have a playground where they can let loose and be free? I invite you to "gift" yourself and your thoughts by keeping a journal. You never know what new and fun things you might find in there.Tomiko
2008-10-02
Have you ever put off doing something just because you didn't have the energy to do it? Or you just weren't motivated to do it? Or your favorite show was on and you chose to watch it instead of doing "that thing" you've been putting off. Welcome to the club!
I've been feeling kind of "stuck" lately. I can't seem to muster up the energy to do much of anything. I wasn't even motivated to post this entry. So I thought I'd work through this with all of you. : )
I discovered that I am a goal-oriented gal. I like to see the finish line before I start doing something. I like to know that if I just do everything the way I'm supposed to, I will succeed. What I DON'T like is working with no visible or tangible goal in sight. I am not motivated by the promise or possibility of something. I need hardcore facts and evidence to keep my going.
But those things aren't always available. I hate that! Sometimes we have to do things based on faith or the possibility of success. I think that's why I don't gamble. It's not a sure thing. If I think about it, nothing is a sure thing. WOW! Just had a light bulb moment! If I were to only do something because it was a sure thing, I wouldn't be doing much of anything. I wouldn't be married. I wouldn't be starting a business. I wouldn't be working out. I wouldn't be reconnecting with my family. Ladies, I am having a moment here!
I literally just got unstuck. I just realized that it's the DOING & BEING that gets us unstuck. The sitting and waiting for a sure thing keeps us stuck. Taking action, living, trying, exploring, gambling - these are the ways to get things moving. Sometimes we have to do "that thing" that we don't want to do just to get us into action. Action creates movement & energy. Those are the things that can help us attain our goals. Sitting still and being stuck only reap sitting still and being stuck.
I've heard that the lesson is in the journey, not in attaining the goal. Those words are ringing loud and clear right now.
Now that I've unstuck myself, I guess I need to get to work. Thanks for letting me work this out with you. I hope that you, too, will get unstuck with me. : )
Please share with me and the other Goddesses some ways in which you've been stuck and how you got unstuck.
10/08/2008 15:44:06
If this isn't knocking on my door I don't know what is.
I am having a moment like that this week. Knowing I have things to do but putting them off because of what. I know one thing is for certain, I have to let myself go! Or should I say, I am letting myself go! Stop thinking so much about HOW its going to get done and step out and DO! I like to have all of the answers and the process figured out before I start the journey...as in Christann wants google maps for everything! I have to be patient with myself and with my life and know that everything is in perfect order. And that's not to say that I sit back and watch things fall into place....I just have to take one step at a time and believe in that ONE step and that is the beginning of something beautiful!
10/13/2008 19:40:21
Greetings All-
Tomiko, thank you so much for all that you do and for being such a down to earth/grounded brown beauty. I recall always seeing you on Maybelline ads and in magazines. And I would say to myself how amazing that she is BROWN/DARK/BEAUTIFUL/NATURAL. You are truly an inspiration for all women of color. It's a deeper than people realize. Our young girls are hurting and moving in negative directions due to lack of confidence. If our young youth don't see images of themselves in the media/print/ hear it at home then what is there basis of beauty? I even notice pre school kids and some black parents (at a daycare) automatically gravitate towards the light skin/Caucasian kids. Sorry for the tangent, but too often your childhood experiences shape you/effect your self worth. You are a role model for so many and I thank you for being a leader.
I have been experiencing the same issues. It's so easy to be too focused on the details and not on the big picture, which is our life. Some people say I am a perfectionist, but I just like things in order. Upon further review I realize it's a way to maintain control my decisions and myself. It's not realistic, some things are truly out of our hands and we have no control of it. I'm sure many women feel as I do that at times if your not busy working or planning your next move, then your not being productive. Says who? Society, our boss, our parents, our friends. I don't follow trends and therefore refuse to follow the norm either. In NY everything is about time and money. If the average person in NYC isn't rushing or unhappy/angry then one would assume that you are a tourist.
No day is promised and we can only do the best that we can with what we have at any given moment. Wherever we are is where we need to be. All that we have is all that we need at this moment. It may sound corny, but everything happens in it's own time. I’m learning to embrace each moment and just flow. If I’m not motivated at the moment it's ok. Inspiration naturally comes and goes. I truly believe that change is the only constant.
Peace/progress/infinite blessings
Bri